Love Bug.

Monday, April 21, 2008

I'm not sure what am I feeling now. Things just don't get on the right path. Things are bothering me at this weird time.

School was alright. Was being in a bad mood since school starts. But after that lesson, it went all down. I'm sorry to those whom I ignored like Cally. I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. Blame it on my PMS. Sorry. SS lesson was alright. Was sitting there by myself to get facts right into my mind. Didn't want to think that much but the thing just got onto my mind like that. Wasn't in the mood to laugh or joke or even talk. E-Maths was the same. Had revision test - trigonometry. Recess didn't enjoy much too although we are supposed to buy for the class and sit around and talk. I'm sorry to those who asked if I was going down to buy hot dogs. My mood wasn't there. CME was heart - to - heart talk with Patricia. I feel more relaxed after talking to her. At least she understands me. I was controlling my tears. And I managed. Heard from EP that she cried during RE, cheer up EP! We both had problems at the wrong time but it doesn't concern about each other. English was okay, cause I managed to forget everything which troubles me. Chemistry was next. I decided to tell Cally and EP about it. Since Patricia was there, so I didn't mind cause she knew it already. Cally and EP understand how I feel also. They told me not to think so much. I tried. After awhile, I just couldn't take it anymore and teared silently without anyone knowing but Cally made it obvious. Let me tell you this : sometimes close or closest friends might not be the one who will appreciate you but those who you aren't close or closer to . Isn't it true?

The truth is,
I regretted transferring over to SJC although I have a bunch of lively and friendly friends who understands me. But it seems that posts are being more important to them, they can back stab you without you knowing. Please do not look only on the outer appearance what she/he does but also understand the person well. Will you like it if people whom you know and who are quite close to you go up to a teacher and say ' So and So can't make it one la.' How would you feel if you heard it especially when the teacher comes and say straight to your face? Of course you would feel bad. I can't tolerate it anymore. I think sk is better. At least people appreciates what you have done and do not just look whether you got post a not. It doesn't mean a playful person can't lead and also those who do not have a post can't lead. Please understand people's feelings alright? I really regret.

Continuing what I haven't finish:

Went AMK hub after school. Was somehow smsing Vanessa but didn't send just type on phone. I told her what I felt and all. She thinks so too. Great Job Vanessa! You deserve what you suppose to deserve. Had lunch at Macs. Then went home with Vanessa and Alex.

There maybe study session tomorrow. Seehow alright. Base on my mood.